hmm sometimes i still get those pangs of sadness whenever... i know i shouldn't. it was a tough choise but i made the decision. haven't i told myself not to? the future looks brighter.. hope it goes fine. a new day.

wow. a sunday wasted. spent it doing pw. another wow. that's why i say pw sucks. actually its only purpose is to let you make 4 friends.. that's in my case cuz my pw group rocks. thanks guys, i know i have been damn bloody slack. and i apologise for that. probably should have done more and put in more effort but i really din care about pw you know. so yeah, hope tmr goes fine.. we really put in a lot of effort and it was actually quite fun. the process. don't kill me for saying this. but i think the immense relief after all this is over will be more than great.

yeah, sometimes i feel i've lost myself. i know it. i mean, i don't know anything. sometimes i just feel so small..like does anyone know my existence? i ask questions, i don't even know if i expect answers.. no, i hate being confused. constantly trying to think that its part of the process.but it's hard.